3 weeks old

Harper is 3 weeks old today! May 26, 2015 :) She loves to eat, look up at the ceiling, lay on daddy and mommy's tummies, and making plenty of dirty diapers for mommy and daddy to change! She has such a strong little body, lifting her head more gracefully for such long periods of time!! She is pushing off of our legs if she can feel them with her feet. She's making more and more adorable baby sounds! She is mastering turning on to her side which makes us nervous to put her in her crib at night in case she happens to turn herself over! But I'm sure she will be fine :) we may have to leave her arms out of the swaddle sooner than usual! We are the happiest, most tired parents. We love her so so much. 

40 weeks

Someone forgot to warn me that the day I hit 40 weeks would be the most miserable yet. Last night Bryce and I were on our daily walk when we ran into our friends Kate and Brandon. We decided to do a little frisbee golfing- after all I was all about getting things moving, maybe this would help. Well by the 2nd hole I was done and decided to just stick to walking. I was having a ton of pelvic pressure and pain. After we were done, we went for frozen yogurt. Delish. But I was getting terrible cramp like pains the whole time. On the way home every little bump was killing me! When we finally got home it was 10 and I got in the bath. From that point on until right now, I have not gone without a contraction at least every 5 minutes. So they started getting painful. Really painful. To the point where I was in tears. I was so frustrated that I didn't know if I should go to labor and delivery or not that I began bawling. Finally I decided I would see if they got worse and stayed close together. Finally at 330 I told Bryce we needed to go in, it was getting too painful. We get to the hospital and they let us know they are sending patients to the other hospital because they are understaffed and won't have enough beds, but they would check me. So I got hooked up and had them check me. I was getting contractions every 2-3 minutes, then 5, then back to 2-3 and she said they would cancel an induction and keep me after she checked me. Well the check held no good news. I am still at a centimeter, and while my doctor told me I was at 70 last week, the nurse said I am not that thin. It was a miserable thing to be told. She also asked me what my pain level was when I got there and I said 6. She then told me that since it was my first baby that my pain level is probably more a 2. Thank you kind nurse (she really was nice just crushed my dreams) for telling me what MY pain level "really" is. Guys I was at the point where it hurt so bad that in my head I thought "I can't do more days of this, I would rather get a c section." Those of you who know me know that I would not say something like that lightly. But that goes to show you how painful these are. It feels like someone is stabbing my uterus from the inside then carving something. I naturally was bawling while she talked to me. HOW can these be way more painful than last time and still not help me progress? Finally she called my doctor and he said to just come in at 1015 unless my water breaks. The nurse kindly gave me something that "may" help with the pain enough to let me sleep (I'm not sleeping if that tells you anything. 24 hours and still going strong). But that's all they could do. She told me not to worry, that it wouldn't be another week, I'm in early labor and I should be back soon when the pain doubles or my water breaks. If the pain doubles I literally will not be alive. I have already been so nauseated from how painful these contractions are that I can't imagine having them get too much worse. So here I am sitting in a bath blogging to try and distract me from my contractions (hahaha) while I wait 3 more hours for my appointment. I am 40 weeks and 100% miserable. All Bryce keeps reminding me is how worth it she is. He's totally right. He has been such a rock for me tonight. He's helped with breathing, with making sure I'm as comfy as I can be. I am so blessed to have him. 

How far along:

40 weeks. Please let this be my last blog

Size of baby:
A watermelon still? 

Total Weight Gain:
I am not sure, probably still around 30 

Movement:   

She hates the monitors. She goes nuts and tries to kick them off me. Hahaha

Belly Button in or out?:
In. 

Sleep:
Going on 24 hours of nada. Contractions really are the worst. 

What I miss:

Breathing. 

Food Cravings:
Pizza. 

Food Aversions:  

Still doing great and not having any problems! 

Nausea:

With the painful contractions.  

Moody/Happy?
Moody. See intro haha. 

Wedding ring on our off?

I made it to 40 weeks without ever having to take it off :) 

Symptoms: 

Everything. Haha

Best Moment this week:
Spending time with friends! 

Worst Moment this week:
Today. Hahah

What I'm looking forward to:

An epidural. I swear that some people just don't have these kind of labor pains or have a ridiculous threshold, because if I tried to do this natural I would pass out.