9 week bumpdate!

This past week has probably been both the worst and best week of pregnancy. Worst round of morning sickness. Best because I found something that takes me from an 8 to a 2 or 3 on the sickness scale. I'll do my Bumpdate before I get into that because I'm sure it'll overlap! 

Maternity clothes? Still a no, but I want some. Not because I need them, more because anything that clings to me makes me sooo clostrophobic. If I wear a shirt with a normal neckline of a tshirt I literally gag. Literally. It's TERRIBLE. So I've been repeating outfits. That is... When I get ready. 

Stretch marks? So far, so good. Don't want to jinx it, I'm only 9 weeks and haven't done much stretching. 

Sleep? It's off and on. The unisom helps with that, but sometimes I get weird pains and then I'm up for hours thinking something is wrong and wondering if I need to call the doctor. The worst anxiety I swear. 

Best moment this week? The day after I bought unisom. I finally felt some relief from feeling like I was going to throw up the entire day and night!! 

Miss anything? Being able to work out. I just feel too fatigued and get nervous it'll make my nausea worse. I'm planning on starting next Monday, hopefully it'll be a bit better by then. I also still miss being in the mood to eat whatever. 

Movement? Negative, still way too early. 

Food cravings? Bagel bites and hot tomales. And frostys. I bought the first two but haven't gone for the latter. I usually don't like sweets especially chocolate especially whilst Prego, but this sounds delightful. 

Nausea? Its still around, but I started taking unisom and b12 and it helps SO much. The first two days were bliss. The third, I felt sick still, then I started taking half at morning then half at night instead of just a whole one at night and that helps! 

Started showing yet? No, just the normal belly fat I've had! 

Labor signs? No, but my upper right abdomen hurt last night and I was terrified that something was wrong. Apparently I'm fine so far! 

Belly button in or out? Still an innie. 

Happy or moody? I've been way happier since taking unisom, but still get mood swings :-/ 

Looking forward to? Ultrasound next Thursday, and nearing the end ish of my first trimester. Also, making the announcement next week after the ultrasound! 

So I think the Bumpdate actually coveted everything. Great week because of unisom, bad week because of anxiety at night that something could be wrong. My morning sickness was so bad last Thursday I called the doctor (I know I'm not throwing up but I've also lost weight because I haven't eaten anything) in tears asking what to do. Thank goodness they said unisom! 

Miracles are HARD Work

Being pregnant is hard. Way harder than I expected, I think. The worst part for me? You guessed it. Morning sickness. Oh wait, you mean morning sickness is mislabeled? Well luckily, I had been warned. What I hadn't been warned about was the feeling, because it is quite hard to explain. Let me try to elaborate.

I wake up in the morning about 3 hours before I want to due to hunger pangs. Hunger pangs. And if I don't eat quick enough, I will feel like throwing up for the next few hours. So I go to the kitchen and eat. Well, eating also makes me feel nauseous. So I have to decide, hunger pangs nausea, or eating nausea. I know I need to eat so I try. Usually it's half a bagel. It takes me about 20 minutes to eat it. I then have to put my dishes in the dishwasher, and as I am doing that I have to tell myself that I can NOT be the person who throws up in the dishwasher. About 30 minutes to an hour later, since I didn't eat more than half a bagel, the hunger pangs are back. Followed by nausea. Followed by nausea of eating. This goes on ALL DAY. That's right, all day. It's literally a constant battle trying to not feel nauseous. I know it's not like that for everyone, but it's like that for me. At 8 weeks, I know I'm lucky because I'm not vomiting (literally just had to try to figure out which variation of the word wouldn't make me want to do that very thing while editing after) and I'm not having to go to the hospital for IVs like a few of my friends. However, it is really hard being on the verge of getting,ehem, sick all day long. Don't get me wrong, there are moments of relief, but they come very infrequently. The best way to explain it I think is imagine the in-between moments as the day after you have the stomach flu. You feel weak, your stomach feels off, and the thought of eating makes you nauseous all over again. 

But guys, it's manageable. I mean, chances are before the week is up, I'll call and ask for medication because it's interfering with my daily schedule (it's rough looking for a job when all you can do is lay on the couch and hope the nausea stays at bay long enough for you to drink the glass of water that your increased blood volume is making you yearn for), but still, it's manageable. 

I have to give my kudos to those who feel this way and chase a toddler around. I was telling Bryce the other day as I sat on the floor of our shower (hint, it's not a bathtub shower, I just couldn't stand up without feeling like I was dying) that I wasn't so sure I wanted to do the whole "4-5 kids" thing anymore ;) Obviously it's worth it, but man, it's rough. 

Coupled with the exhaustion you feel growing a human life, yes, I would say being pregnant is REALLY hard. 

We finally told my in-laws the other day, mainly because I couldn't handle trying to act normal when I was feeling sick constantly. Bryce wanted to wait for the ultrasound but that was almost 3 weeks away! I couldn't make it. 

I know that I am SO blessed to have a miracle inside my belly. I don't want people to think I don't appreciate the ability I have to carry a child, because I know I am SO so blessed. I know the sickness and tiredness and pain (you get cramps when you're pregnant, did you know? Me either, so it terrifies me and I have to ask every pregnant/past pregnant person if it's normal no matter how many times they tell me it is) will all be SO worth it. All of my friends are having their tiny humans and I keep telling myself "that's going to be me in 32 weeks. Every time I look over at my extremely good-looking husband, and get to wonder if our kids will have his perfect lips, his piercing blue eyes, his long eyelashes, I know how special it is. I am one lucky woman, and though it's hard, we know that nothing that takes hard work ever leaves us disappointed in the end ;) 

9-23-14

7 Week Bumpdate

Okay, so hardly anyone knows I'm pregnant right now. This will remain a draft until it's out in the open, but I wanted to blog about my experiences of being pregnant. I'll start with how i feel:

Tired. 

I am so tired. I don't have my dental hygiene license yet but I feel like a lazy bum because of how much I don't want to do anything. I think part of it is being nauseous is wearing me out. I went and took my resume to a dentist yesterday and I was planning on doing more today but it took everything I had to shower, blow dry my hair, and straighten it. It was 1230 by the time I was done. I started at 9. I mean I took a time-out for One Tree Hill for an episode but man it took so long. It doesn't help that my mane seems to be shedding less. More hair. I was hoping it would start falling out... (Cue angry women with thin hair wanting to punch me in the face). Anyways, I feel worthless. I need to get energized! Moving on:

How far along? 7 weeks 

Maternity clothes? Not yet. But when I got back from Hawaii my jeans were a little snug- I think from gaining muscle in my legs though. I had been working them out tons before we left and walking everywhere definitely strengthened them.  

Stretch marks? None yet. My sister told me to get Burt's Bees Mama Bees oil, so I've been using it once a day. I noticed when I got back from Hawaii that I actually already had some on my hips. I think my tan made them stand out. Oh well! 

Sleep? I'm getting plenty of sleep at night, but I think I need to start napping until I find a job. 

Best moment this week? My dad and step-moms reaction when I told them. My dad literally said "I can't believe you've had sex" and it was the funniest thing ever. They were thrilled! 

Miss anything? Being in the mood to eat whatever whenever. Not feeling nauseous the second my stomach feels a little empty. 

Movement? Nope, got awhile before that. But I have been getting aches. Apparently it's my belly making room for da beebs. 

Food cravings? Subway. Which I've been told is fine to eat. I'm sure tons of people will freak out, but can you tell me the last time you got sick eating subway without being Prego? Me either. Also Progressos Minestrone soup. Heaven. It was all I wanted today and I'm actually able to eat more than 3 bites, which is more than I can say for the mac n cheese I've been working on for 3 days. The broth of the minestrone is my faaaavorite. 

Nausea? It's the worst. I mean it's not like I feel like I'm on the verge of vommitting  24/7, but when I wake up in the am, I feel fine but shove food in my tummy because I know it won't last. Which then brings on nausea for a little while. Everytime I eat (besides minestrone) it makes my stomach hurt initially then I'll be fine after. It's terrible. I'm glad I haven't thrown up yet, though. I know I've had friends be hospitalized so I shouldn't complain. Nights are bad. As long as I put food in my belly I'm fine. 

Started showing yet? No, I don't think so. I hope not. Though I already have a pooch from before I was Prego haha. 

Labor signs? Sure hope not! 

Belly button in or out? In as usual. We will see if it stays that way. 

Happy or moody? All over the place! Bryce I think mainly thinks I'm moody. It's more that I'm exhausted. When I'm mad I usually do deep breaths to drop the hint. Now I'm just so tired and out of breath that I do that and he's like WHATS WRONG! Hahaha. But I'll be in happy phases too! 

Looking forward to? Ultrasound. It's not for 3 weeks because that's the soonest they could get me in (are you kidding?!) but still it's set. Also looking forward to the 1st trimester being over so I don't have to be nauseous. Half way there... Ugh :(