This morning, it was one of the morning when we couldn't get up. I had woken up in the middle of the night with a terrible coughing fit, and my husband wanted me to get some rest as I am about to go back to school and cannot afford to be sick. So we slept in an extra hour or so, and when we woke up, I looked at him and said, "We get to watch a loooot of mormon messages today!" Not have to, but get to. I just love the way the LDS church has embraced the use of technology! They take these already amazing talks that make you want to cry with joy and happiness at the prospect of hope, add little videos to them, some sentimental music, and soon enough you find yourself bawling all morning while your husband keeps telling you as you sniffle, "you must have a cold, you can't seriously STILL be sniffling...." oh, but I am. As I write this I am still sniffling.
I cannot in words explain my gratitude of being able to attend such a glorious church. I am not proud... I just feel beyond blessed. I am forever indebted to those sweet missionaries that my great aunt sent to my mothers house when she was a teenager. I am forever grateful that though my mom was not always very active, she realized the importance of raising her children in this church. I am forever grateful and indebted to a savior who not only died, but lived for me as well. He has set the most amazing example for me! I wish I had the motivation He does to go and seek those who are weak, to help lift them and heal them in anyway possible. He is the one who offers me comfort in my darkest hours. It may be through my husband or friends that He does so, but He is ALWAYS very near, ready to send mighty angels as soon as He feels I need them.
I am blessed to have an amazing family. I speak with my sister most every day, and see my little niece grow due to the advances in technology. I can assure you that these advances in technology were not sparked by men who just had a brilliant idea. I firmly believe that every advancement of the human race is due to inspiration from our kind and loving Heavenly Father. It is up to us to use these gifts wisely.
Ah my heart is just EXPLODING with gratitude.
Back to these mormon messages... there were a few in the hour and a half that we spent watching them that truly struck me. One of them was about Elder Jeffrey R. Holland and an experience that he had when he wanted to spend time with his son and show him a fun time with lovely nature! Okay maybe not in so many words, but something like that. Anyways, here is the link:
(You can either click the link or watch the video here, it will open in anew window :) )
WOW. What an amazing message... I had no idea where they were going to go with "the moral of the story is" and then BAM. It hit me. Our Father in Heaven knows our hearts so well that He is willing to show us the wrong road in order to help us know what the right one is... if that makes any sense at all.. It makes sense to me at least, and Bryce loved it too.
I have a similar experience.
When Bryce and I were seriously dating, I had many doubts. I had come from a broken family, and was very reserved about moving quickly (as I knew it would if we continued to date). Naturally I always had a pit in my stomach due to my doubts. I wondered if it was the spirit telling me that it wasn't right. My roommate Whitney and many talks I was reading at the time advised me that I had to take a step in the dark before the light turned on. So I made the decision to end my relationship with Bryce, hoping it would either feel right or very wrong... and boy was I a mess. I cried on the way home, confused on what I had just done. I had confused Bryce terribly, as everything had been going well between us since day 1! We had told each other that we loved one another, what was going on?
A few days went by and there was no clarity. I felt so confused, and the confusion did not go away. Finally on a Monday, I was reading a talk for a family foundations class, and I learned all of these amazing things and had annotated it and felt like I had made so many more discoveries about our church and my immediate feeling was "I need to tell Bryce!"... but I had broken his heart... but he was the only one I wanted to talk about this with. So I had my answer. I went to him later that night and did my best to explain everything to him, and hoped it wasn't too late. Obviously it wasn't... because we were married 6 months later. But I think that Heavenly Father planned it all out. I think that He KNEW I would have doubts all the way up to our marriage if I did not learn for myself that it was right, so He gave me the feeling that I needed to end it, and I figured out quickly that it was obviously the wrong choice... I don't know if that makes sense to anyone, but it does to me. I'm grateful for that lesson I learned, for that experience that I had. I'm sure there are many other experiences that we have had.
This has probably been a very long and seemingly never-ending blog post. But I wanted to share it while I felt these feelings :) I hope to be on this more often to share my experiences, trials, and life with my friends and family and those who may need some uplifting. If I am able to help one person with this blog, it will be worth it! If I could help spread the gospel to someone or reignite something in one person, it will be worth it!
Here is the link that pushed me to update the blog and start utilizing technology more :)
I would like to close this blog with this one last video that touched my heart. I have always been in love with science, and while many who go into science feel that it explains that there couldn't possibly be a God after knowing what they know, I have the exact opposite feeling after knowing what I know. The way our bodies function, the way this world functions, how there is light and dark, how our heart knows when to beat, how our bodies can create beings with personalities, with gifts... to me it is just proof that there is a God!
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