Now, I know what you might be thinking... "But Carlie.... there is no Day 2!" False. I also have a journal, folks. So here and there when I leave my laptop in my car and am too lazy to go get it, I will indeed be writing in my journal. My journal which, by the way, I completely filled up and had to buy a new one yesterday. FIRST ONE EVER COMPLETELY FILLED! Great success. So first HOL, then the real blog.
Today I was blessed.
I cut my finger while volunteering at a Dam Marathon. (Name of the marathon, I swear...) and there were medics on site so it was splendid.
The fact that Heavenly Father made our bodies fast recoverers what with platelets. (sp)... I feel so much better.
I took a nap and was able to get enough rest that helped build my energy for the studying I had ahead of me.
I was able to learn by the spirit as I studied anatomy and have retained much more than I usually can.
I was able to spend time with friends.
I was able to be relieved of stress
I was able to take a look at what really matters....
It's funny how little things remind you of people from your past. I could literally look at an object or hear a song and have someone pop in to my mind. It sucks some times because maybe it's hard to have those memories. Remember when you were happy and think of where things went wrong. But I think that the big picture is that things never go wrong. They may seem like it in the moment, but it all leads you to where you are supposed to end up, so long as you are putting everything you have in to this thing called "life."
I've been let down a lot in my life. By family, by friends, by significant others... it's hard to put myself out there knowing that the same things could happen. Knowing that I may be going out on a limb only to fall off again. But I always have the strength to do it anyways. Always get the thought "maybe this time it will be different." And many times, with family and friends, it has been. Others it hasn't. And as far as significant others, it never will be different until it's the person I marry. I've learned it's not smart to say "this always happens to me..." because of COURSE it does. It's supposed to until it's RIGHT. That's the constant reminder I have to give myself. The thing is, I'm young. I'm not worried about any of that stuff. It's in my head, but tucked away until I have a reason to bring it out. Life is good right now. I'm going to do the things that make me happy. I'm going to follow the dreams that I have.
Today I saw Nik Day play live... It made me yearn to be on stage. To sing to people. To move people. It has always been my dream, but there have always been the "what if's"... What if it doesn't work out. What if something happens and I do all of this work only to have plans change. Someone once told me there will always be what if's. It's true. I just have to tune them out. Everything is going to happen the way it is supposed to. I know that as long as I live right and do my part in this world, it will all work out for my own good. I have faith in that.
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